& baby makes 5

 

Hey Everyone, can’t believe it’s been about a year since my last post and ironically this post is somewhat the same. A lot has happened in a year. For starters we had another baby yup baby number 3 and I’m writing this because many of my friends and followers on social media are convinced that we will have another baby soon, but unfortunately that is not the case this last time around.

As much as I love my babies and love being pregnant and would love to keep giving our kids more sibling I just can’t, my body can’t. I feel blessed that my body was even able to carry 3 babies.

So lets rewind back to March 2016…

Our second son Jace was only 6 months old when we found out that I was expecting again. Total shocker since we thought we were done having babies. I was getting ready to go on a road trip with my two boys to Miami to visit family and of course a couple weeks back I still had not gotten my monthly friend, lol so that morning my husband was like just take it to have a piece of mind while you’re gone. Well sure enough I took the test and bam written nice and clear POSITIVE my mouth dropped, I came out the bathroom and once again Bill knew it was positive (my face always gives it away, lol)  We both knew that moment we were having another baby there was never a doubt in that.

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When we found out that our second baby was another boy we were over the moon. We were so happy that we were giving our oldest a brother to grow with and bond with, but in the back of my mind I didn’t feel like our family was “complete” as people say when they know their family is a whole. I felt more fulfilled and even though I knew(well I thought I did until I got pregnant) that Jace was going to be our last baby I just didn’t feel complete. I felt like something or someone was missing in our family to actually complete us(if that makes sense to you) I just felt in my heart that maybe we were meant to have another baby, a girl to make our family whole, but just didn’t think that would really happen. well now that I knew baby number 3 was coming I was convinced I was going to have another boy and honestly I was OK with that. I was ready to take that role of boy mom. I was ready and learning to accept the fact that I was going to be the only girl in my family.

Fast forward to 17 weeks pregnant and about to find out if we were having a boy or a girl. We did a gender reveal photo shoot with the talented and friend of mine Rachel owner of RachelVPhotography.com here in Orlando, Florida. Anxious, excited, nervous for what our gender reveal was about to be… Then boom PINK powder EVERYWHERE. I was so confused and I couldn’t see the actual color that was surrounding all over us. All I saw was Bill’s face with a huge smile and the kids covered in powder. Still unsure Bill threw the remaining powder at me to and then it hit me WE’RE HAVING A GIRL and the tears started to come down and I loved that at that moment our emotions were being photographed and I was always have these moments forever.

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rachel-v-photography_hunt_gender-reveal-7-12-16-40As all pregnancies this one was just as different as the last one. I experienced almost everything the opposite as my last one. With our girl I got really bad skin from red spots to dry skin (Not cute at all, lol) I also had a bad stuffy nose and not just for a few days this went on for weeks and weeks definitely not fun at all, but I knew it would all go away and the best reward would come out of all this…our baby girl.

Now the good(well not so good, but the purpose of this post to begin with)

We were scheduled for December 13, 2016 at 9am to have our girl. That morning came and we were up and out of our house by 6am. Thank god for my family that came from Miami to help. They stayed with the boys while we were in surgery, they came later on that day. We were then called  in and they start to prepare me, put my name tags on, change my clothes into those gorgeous gowns, lol then the best part. Needles. I’m then connected to the monitor to keep track of baby girl and make sure everything is going good on her end. Epidural comes next and last. We wait till I’m numb which for the first time took forever. About 20 minutes later and I was ready to go.

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8:58am. It is now go time. Bill and I are ready and heading to the OR. Oxygen tube is in place and we’re ready to bring baby girl into the world. As I laid there I felt some pressure not much. Some time in between them starting and before she came my two doctors that were working on me asked to call in one of my other doctors.  Not knowing what was happening I heard them say “We need Dr. Ortiz in here now we need another pair of hands” I started to get nervous, but kept myself calm because I saw Bill’s face he looked worried, but was trying to keep his cool for me. We fed off each other and somehow managed to calm each other done. Dr. Ortiz then came in she jumped right in and started to help. I kept hearing all 3 doctors talking but couldn’t clearly make out what they were saying all I know was that Dr. Ortiz kept looking over the curtain that they put up when you have a C-section and said to us ” No more babies mommy, that’s it you are done you cant/shouldn’t have more babies” not knowing what she meant with that Bill and I were jut like no we’re done we got our girl we’re happy and DONE! This was when I knew something was up and not with the baby but with me.. She kept coming over the curtain and kept repeating herself that this was it I was to not have anymore babies.. At that point I looked at Bill and he looked pale. I came to realize reason he was getting pale was because he was smelling burn skin, my skin!

At 9:39am we welcomed a beautiful baby girl named Joyana pronounced Joy-Ana Catherine weighing 8lbs 6oz 21ins of pure love. It was the happiest moment to know she was out and OK. Bill kept going back an forth between the both of us until they brought her to me and put her on my chest for some skin to skin time while they basically put me back together.

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10:51am and they were finally done. Now if you ask me that’s a LONG time in the OR for a C-section. I’ve had 2 before this one and they both had lasted no more than 45 minutes or so. SO you do the math in how long I was in there. Recovery went well and I was out of the hospital 2 days later.

Fast forward to my one week postpartum appointment and I see one of the doctors that delivered Joyana. She walks in and says “how you doing” and shakes her head like wow cant believe what we went through with you. I say I’m fine just very sore as if I did a million sit-ups, lol. She then went on to tell me how they do not understand how my baby was able to stay in my uterus the whole pregnancy. My mouth then dropped and I asked her to explain to me what the hell happened in there. She then told me my uterus is done and that I can’t get pregnant again. I have a hole in my uterus on one side and on the other side I have a small window where the wall of my uterus is very thin which means it could also rip there if I was to get pregnant again and on top of that I had a lot of scarred tissue which makes sense why I felt like I had done a million sit-ups. I had so much scar tissue that when they went in to get her they had to burn (hence the smell of burn skin) a lot of that skin and on top of that I kept bleeding in different areas in there which they also had to burn to shut it close reason why they needed another set of hands. I was bleeding in different areas at the same time. My doctors did not understand how she was not hanging outside of my uterus.. They said it was a miracle she stayed in my uterus the whole pregnancy because she could have easily been in my abdomen. I was in total shock hearing all this. Bill and I just kept looking at each other. I wanted to cry at that moment. This was the reason why they kept telling me NO MORE BABIES during surgery! My uterus might not be able to handle another pregnancy. It’s not safe for me or the baby. Nothing is wrong with me getting pregnant it’s my uterus that might not be able to handle it and it could not end up well for either me or the baby. So on that note for those asking if we will have more the answer is unfortunately nope, but I must say as much as I love pregnancy I’m very happy, content, and feel like my family is now completed thanks to our precious girl Joyana Catherine.

Until next post. Love you all.

xoxo Jessica

Valentine’s Big Brother Announcement

Wow where do I begin.. I’ve been MIA since I started my blog a few months back. So much has happened since. For starters Christmas & New Years came and went and now we’re here ending of Feb and Valentine’s just passed about 2 weeks and I shared some exciting new with social media this past weekend.

It all started on New Years Day when I knew something was up with my body. For us women(some not all) are very in tuned with our bodies (I know I am since having our son) and I was telling my hub something is up I still have not gotten my womanly monthly thing so hub suggest I take a home pregnancy test. Nervous as I was and I KNEW what the test would say I said ok I’ll take one tomorrow which will be Friday. I knew if I didn’t I would have a weekend of drinking beers with hub and I KNEW I couldn’t do that to myself because of course I KNOW my intuition was right.. Well the next day came and we had people coming over to do some work on our home that morning. So Bill woke up first went downstairs and greeted the worker that was coming to work on our oven as I stayed upstairs in bed knowing I had to get up and go to the bathroom. Little Billy was still sleeping. So I got up went to the bathroom did my thing and waited and waited what seemed like a lifetime which was only in reality 2 mins, lol then BAM I looked down and the words “PREGNANT” read across the test. My eyes swelled with tears as I read it over and over and over.. I was SO happy I looked at myself in the mirror as I gather my thoughts as to how or what I was going to say to Bill. Billy then woke up I put myself together and went into his room. Said good morning my love and started to cry again. He looked at me and said “mommy why are you crying?! I’m here to protect you” (he always tells me that when I cry, happy tears of course. I’m a big sucker for sad movies, sad commercials etc.) any who I right away told him Billy you’re going to be a big brother and he said yes mommy you have a baby in the tummy(It’s as if he’s known or been wishing for this day since he started asking me for a brother or sis). I said yes honey mommy now has a baby in there and since then he always kisses my belly, almost every single day.

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So now we get ready to go downstairs and it’s time to tell daddy. I know I know I told lil Billy first, but I couldn’t help it he was the first one I saw right after and just looking at him I couldn’t hold back my tears of joy. As I go down the stairs I hear Bill with the repair guy and I’m like damn I can’t tell him yet not with workers in our home, lol. I’m trying to hide my happiness as soon as I turn the corner into the kitchen he looks at me and said “you took it huh” lol I guess my permanent smile sold me and he said “I knew it” lol we hugged and I cried again, lol the repair man at the point had no clue and he was almost done. He left we all hugged and I cried again then it began…

Morning, noon and night sickness has begun! Wow let me just say that my first pregnancy was not I repeat was not nowhere near what I’ve gone through this pregnancy. I wouldn’t change it for the WORLD, but oh lord it’s been horrible. Again I wouldn’t  change it for anything. Being pregnant is a blessing on its own and I know it will pass and it’s just the first trimester. I can get through it and I will. Having the most amazing man in the world also helps A LOT! I can not thank him enough for all that he’s done and still doing since I’m still in my first trimester. I have not done ANYTHING in our home and I’m not lying when I say I haven’t! I’ve had NO energy to do anything even be with my boy which kills me since we went from doing something each and every day to NOTHING at all! He’s the best little boy I tell you. If it was up to him he would sit//lay right next to me and take care of me and being a homebody helps a lot. He LOVES his house and that makes us happy to know how much he loves it and it also makes us crazy sometimes cause it takes us FOREVER sometimes to get him out the house.

So we discussed when to announce this pregnancy. I thought about what holiday was coming next and of course it was Valentine’s after that it’s St. Patrick’s and I felt kind of silly doing it on a drinking holiday, lol. So we opted for Valentine’s even tho I would be almost 3 months by Valentine’s (about a week and 1/2 early) and still kind of undeceive if I should or shouldn’t. Well between my mom and my hub I went along with it and decided to go to Etsy and buy a “Big Brother” announcement image and get started on our DIY project and of course off to my favorite Bow Tie site (www.littlermr.net) I went and purchase Billy a Valentine’s bow tie. Billy was so happy as he’s been since the day we found out, to make this sign with us. Well it turned out great and we fell in love even MORE with the sign and the thought of a new baby coming into our lives.

February 14th came and it was picture time. We got Billy dressed, got my Canon got the dog and off to our backyard we went to do a mini photo shoot and then to the front of the house to take some more pictures of our handsome boy and his big brother sign and lets just say out of 100 we got about a hand full of good ones, but that’s all it takes right? Just to get that one good shot, lol. Here are a few photos from that day. Hope you enjoy them.

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The weeks are flying and I’m starting to feel better (Thank God) I’m just feeling nauseous in the evening more now. I feel good during the day but around 4 it starts to go down hill again. Still very much tired and want to sleep all day, but now it sucks cause if I take a nap I wake up extremely sick and nauseous and my naps consist of 3+ hours, lol so that means I’m waking up right before dinner and I’m so sick I can hardly eat but know I have to to make myself feel better. It’s been difficult, but once again I know well worth EVERY pain and never taking all these little bumps on the road for granted.

I’m now 12 weeks and 3 day and can’t believe how fast I’m showing this time around. I know most of it is bloat but still the thought of how faster I’m showing the second time around amazes me and the most fascinating part is little Billy and the love he has for my belly. For example last night before bedtime he looked at my belly and got the giggles at how “big” it looked. All he did was hug it, rub it and talk to it and tell him or her (which he says it’s a her) was how much he loves it and all the fun they’re going to have together. Melts my heart. On that note I will leave you all with that thought. Until next blog post❤️

Love always Jess