Hey Everyone, can’t believe it’s been about a year since my last post and ironically this post is somewhat the same. A lot has happened in a year. For starters we had another baby yup baby number 3 and I’m writing this because many of my friends and followers on social media are convinced that we will have another baby soon, but unfortunately that is not the case this last time around.
As much as I love my babies and love being pregnant and would love to keep giving our kids more sibling I just can’t, my body can’t. I feel blessed that my body was even able to carry 3 babies.
So lets rewind back to March 2016…
Our second son Jace was only 6 months old when we found out that I was expecting again. Total shocker since we thought we were done having babies. I was getting ready to go on a road trip with my two boys to Miami to visit family and of course a couple weeks back I still had not gotten my monthly friend, lol so that morning my husband was like just take it to have a piece of mind while you’re gone. Well sure enough I took the test and bam written nice and clear POSITIVE my mouth dropped, I came out the bathroom and once again Bill knew it was positive (my face always gives it away, lol) We both knew that moment we were having another baby there was never a doubt in that.
When we found out that our second baby was another boy we were over the moon. We were so happy that we were giving our oldest a brother to grow with and bond with, but in the back of my mind I didn’t feel like our family was “complete” as people say when they know their family is a whole. I felt more fulfilled and even though I knew(well I thought I did until I got pregnant) that Jace was going to be our last baby I just didn’t feel complete. I felt like something or someone was missing in our family to actually complete us(if that makes sense to you) I just felt in my heart that maybe we were meant to have another baby, a girl to make our family whole, but just didn’t think that would really happen. well now that I knew baby number 3 was coming I was convinced I was going to have another boy and honestly I was OK with that. I was ready to take that role of boy mom. I was ready and learning to accept the fact that I was going to be the only girl in my family.
Fast forward to 17 weeks pregnant and about to find out if we were having a boy or a girl. We did a gender reveal photo shoot with the talented and friend of mine Rachel owner of RachelVPhotography.com here in Orlando, Florida. Anxious, excited, nervous for what our gender reveal was about to be… Then boom PINK powder EVERYWHERE. I was so confused and I couldn’t see the actual color that was surrounding all over us. All I saw was Bill’s face with a huge smile and the kids covered in powder. Still unsure Bill threw the remaining powder at me to and then it hit me WE’RE HAVING A GIRL and the tears started to come down and I loved that at that moment our emotions were being photographed and I was always have these moments forever.
As all pregnancies this one was just as different as the last one. I experienced almost everything the opposite as my last one. With our girl I got really bad skin from red spots to dry skin (Not cute at all, lol) I also had a bad stuffy nose and not just for a few days this went on for weeks and weeks definitely not fun at all, but I knew it would all go away and the best reward would come out of all this…our baby girl.
Now the good(well not so good, but the purpose of this post to begin with)
We were scheduled for December 13, 2016 at 9am to have our girl. That morning came and we were up and out of our house by 6am. Thank god for my family that came from Miami to help. They stayed with the boys while we were in surgery, they came later on that day. We were then called in and they start to prepare me, put my name tags on, change my clothes into those gorgeous gowns, lol then the best part. Needles. I’m then connected to the monitor to keep track of baby girl and make sure everything is going good on her end. Epidural comes next and last. We wait till I’m numb which for the first time took forever. About 20 minutes later and I was ready to go.
8:58am. It is now go time. Bill and I are ready and heading to the OR. Oxygen tube is in place and we’re ready to bring baby girl into the world. As I laid there I felt some pressure not much. Some time in between them starting and before she came my two doctors that were working on me asked to call in one of my other doctors. Not knowing what was happening I heard them say “We need Dr. Ortiz in here now we need another pair of hands” I started to get nervous, but kept myself calm because I saw Bill’s face he looked worried, but was trying to keep his cool for me. We fed off each other and somehow managed to calm each other done. Dr. Ortiz then came in she jumped right in and started to help. I kept hearing all 3 doctors talking but couldn’t clearly make out what they were saying all I know was that Dr. Ortiz kept looking over the curtain that they put up when you have a C-section and said to us ” No more babies mommy, that’s it you are done you cant/shouldn’t have more babies” not knowing what she meant with that Bill and I were jut like no we’re done we got our girl we’re happy and DONE! This was when I knew something was up and not with the baby but with me.. She kept coming over the curtain and kept repeating herself that this was it I was to not have anymore babies.. At that point I looked at Bill and he looked pale. I came to realize reason he was getting pale was because he was smelling burn skin, my skin!
At 9:39am we welcomed a beautiful baby girl named Joyana pronounced Joy-Ana Catherine weighing 8lbs 6oz 21ins of pure love. It was the happiest moment to know she was out and OK. Bill kept going back an forth between the both of us until they brought her to me and put her on my chest for some skin to skin time while they basically put me back together.
10:51am and they were finally done. Now if you ask me that’s a LONG time in the OR for a C-section. I’ve had 2 before this one and they both had lasted no more than 45 minutes or so. SO you do the math in how long I was in there. Recovery went well and I was out of the hospital 2 days later.
Fast forward to my one week postpartum appointment and I see one of the doctors that delivered Joyana. She walks in and says “how you doing” and shakes her head like wow cant believe what we went through with you. I say I’m fine just very sore as if I did a million sit-ups, lol. She then went on to tell me how they do not understand how my baby was able to stay in my uterus the whole pregnancy. My mouth then dropped and I asked her to explain to me what the hell happened in there. She then told me my uterus is done and that I can’t get pregnant again. I have a hole in my uterus on one side and on the other side I have a small window where the wall of my uterus is very thin which means it could also rip there if I was to get pregnant again and on top of that I had a lot of scarred tissue which makes sense why I felt like I had done a million sit-ups. I had so much scar tissue that when they went in to get her they had to burn (hence the smell of burn skin) a lot of that skin and on top of that I kept bleeding in different areas in there which they also had to burn to shut it close reason why they needed another set of hands. I was bleeding in different areas at the same time. My doctors did not understand how she was not hanging outside of my uterus.. They said it was a miracle she stayed in my uterus the whole pregnancy because she could have easily been in my abdomen. I was in total shock hearing all this. Bill and I just kept looking at each other. I wanted to cry at that moment. This was the reason why they kept telling me NO MORE BABIES during surgery! My uterus might not be able to handle another pregnancy. It’s not safe for me or the baby. Nothing is wrong with me getting pregnant it’s my uterus that might not be able to handle it and it could not end up well for either me or the baby. So on that note for those asking if we will have more the answer is unfortunately nope, but I must say as much as I love pregnancy I’m very happy, content, and feel like my family is now completed thanks to our precious girl Joyana Catherine.
Until next post. Love you all.